Monday, July 25, 2005

eQuaTiOns PaGe

ironically, i came up with my own equations...1st to intro is jc= no life + sian...i simply felt this way...after a long day in sch today...2 hrs of bio tutorial...going thru DNA...my head almost burst with the info...too much to bear...now my headaches are making me sick...have to rest for a while..
I had a mini debate wif my mum when i reached home...i was advising her not to talk too much on parent's day tis coming fri...cos my mum is rather chatty...then we began to digress to results... i noe i did not do very well...she kept nagging me to go for tuition...as i am "anti-tuition" person...i totally rejected her "kind offer"...and she continued to say tat having tuition was a privilege in her time...and if she was me, she wld be so eager to get a tutor...i was so frustrated with her comments and her way of thinking...so here goes my second equation...tuition= good grades? hohoho...i dun think so...do u really think money can buy grades? tuition may work for some ppl...but definitely not me..cos i juz dun have the time and mood...y cnt she understand? i think only good grades can make her speechless...
thought the "war" was over...she nagged at me again...saying i was not concentrating well...slack a lot...though it is true...but i felt so despondent...i mean i really got study...juz tat maybe not enough/not effective...she always dun get to see my "hardworking" side...urgh...i dun believe tat "work hard=success"...cos there are ppl who do put in effort but still fail in the end...so wat's the prob? i had this experience...maybe my hard work meant little..but to me...it's already reaching my limit...hmmm...life=???...study=???
guess i am getting too negative here...but dun worry...i am ok...juz venting my frustations...of cos...my mum and i are ok...we always quarrel over this kinda thing...my life juz bores me...juz too little excitement...so i am turning stone soon...as wat lene said in her blog...everyday is like a routine...such a "fixed" feeling...it's like going sch or going home...even the things u do are the same...study, eat ,sleep, play...haiz...
wat an entry...hehez...focusing on my inner feelings...felt much better typing them out...final equation for u...happy= able to do wat u really want...

tat's it at 2:42 AM

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